Our lives are so interconnected that often we do not put ourselves all out there. Not only can it be dangerous. But, people use it against us. You post to FB and someone doesn't like what you have to say, so instead of just not responding or letting it go, they get mad. Really mad. Kinda over reaching their authority in my opinion. Or, lets look at that boss that sees a tweet or FB post and fires you. Which tells me you can be let go for having an opinion, I did not know that was against the law. I don't care if you did it at work, or about work. If it's at work, you could lose it due to not staying on task sure, but for posting? Come on people. How is our social life have tied to whether or not we can do our job? I could see that if you where doing things against the law, this is a different story; however, saying you do or do not like someone\something differ in politics seems a bit of a stretch. We all need that outlet. However, this is just not the case, so what do we do....create an Avatar.
I love watching some people on YouTube. icklenellierose, The Amazing Atheist, Sargon of Akkad, and PewDiePie to name a few. Not because they say the same things or even seem to hide who they are..but do in fact seem they are who they are. A bold move in this world. They don't just read or watch one thing and react, but do a research, take time to look at the word around them even and call people out on their crap. The other part of observed, is they do their post not only to be seen, heard or for their watches, but themselves. The best is always done for you first and your audience next. Since the point is to reach them. In a digital world we should be more informed. In some ways we are, in others...I think we are lazy. We read one thing, or watch one thing and take it as fact; however, I think You-tubers like those I named, are helping to brake us free, which brings me back.
We may not know for use if their name alone is the avatar that helped their true self or a part of themselves to be seen, or if to protect them. But their name alone is unique to give you a part of who they are at a glance. But like a book, you cannot stop there, or you will miss all else they have, just like all us that use our avatars.
In my opinion, I really think we all need that avatar, an outlet. Some of us use FB as that outlet. A way you have as much or as little control you want. On YouTube, your public, once you publish. The whole point of being on YouTube and nothing wrong with that; however, FB if you so chose you can hide, as long as you also watch your friends list. Although that being said, you still can make something locked for your eyes only. It can be a safer way of an outlet, a safety net, of sorts. As safe as this world on online is that is.
I have found myself even having three sides of myself. My FB, my blog, and another outlet that is hidden to all those that I know can't handle my own FB. How many of us do this? How many of us need that to stop feeling so caged in? I would expect a lot more then we know of. Not that we need to know. That's what the avatar is. A safe way to show one or more sides of you. I am more then what I have to be for where I live. Do I find ways to express them, yes; however, I couldn't function if I spoke or did somethings that I wanted, all the time. Nor could most of us. To be a part of society.
I find the fact that I have an avatar that is on its own, that is not a part of my everyday life is freeing. I can show that side of me I used to show, but also a part that is just that. New. And due to this, I am free. No long caged in one world. But another. One where all of who am does not stress me out. Something in which would be helpful to many people. I have been offline for the most part of 6 months, I know it may be awhile since I will not have this as an issue. Even now I know my time is short, and soon I will be going back and I won't have internet. And all I can hope that it is finally coming to an end.
What I found as I've been offline is that my world got to small, to confined because of where we must live for now. I know my little blog in this small part of the internet may not be seen by anyone or much of anybody, but I do not care. It is an outlet. Maybe someplace someone can have a thought challenged, or even learn something they didn't know or never thought about. And that is so great! It's why I watch the YouTube people I do. One for fun, two to have My own mind set challenged. I do not want to stop learning or get caught without the ability to change. I do not always agree with all their opinions, but I respect and normally can even see why they see things the way they do. Plus if I did agree with all their opinions I'd have no reason to watch. Or very little.
So, this is where I leave this post. If you did find my post and enjoyed it, thank you for reading. leave a comment if you like or follow me. I'm slow at the moment, but as soon as i can I'll try and upload more often.
-Ta
Sunday, March 5, 2017
Saturday, February 25, 2017
No Internet Sucks!
Hello!
I normally try and write a blog sooner then this, but I've had no internet for a long time. Sucks. It's amazing how much we do online. Some say, 'internet is a choice, you don't need it.' No, it is not. So much from government help, to job search and app's are all online! Mail, pay stubs, weather, shopping....all online. And right now I'm in a VERY small town, so you want anything, Amazon here I come!
This is a short time for me to have internet for now. I hope soon to be back to normal, but circumstances have led to a blissful few days of internet.
You know small towns are hard. If you are not raised in them. They are not like T.V. where everyone knows your name. Well kinda. Expect they use it to talk behind your back. Now, not everyone, let me say that now; however, it's a lot. The gossiping, like a bunch of young teens before we're suppose to know better. Why so bad? ....better to do. Give me the Big City shadow, any day. More crime? Not as often, however, while living in this small town I've seen a few robberies, a murder, and a but load of domestic violence. In area's of this increasingly small town. Are there good, sure, and would I be so harsh if they were more honest, no. But, for the bible belt (save me) it's a very hypocritical area. Dance is not, nor will ever be evil. Free thought.....not evil. Learning, not evil. And not fitting into a box...(proudly) not evil. But they kinda teach it that it is.
Now on the whole, this is my over all issue with the human race, it's just so much more in your face when you live in a small town. Some are worse then others, some better. There are good, think out side the box people here too. A few. But they are in turn treated, differently.
I, like most people, don't agree with what everyone says or thinks. If we all agreed I bet it would be easier and quieter, but a lot less colorful, and I expect, boring. I try to respect a different view, mostly, some views I just can't agree with because those views only cause pain, but I do try for the most part. That doesn't mean I agree or will change my opinion or thoughts just because one is presented, but I can and do listen. And not just till I speak again. Why is respect for someone such a hard thing now a days? Or maybe I shouldn't say respect, but courtesy. As humans we have the ability to know better, yet on average, we choose not do have this.
This is how it is right. All the idea's in the world, we use half for evil....do good with some and find a profit for the rest. Then deny and complain. I have no idea if I really believe we can grow out of this or not. So much art, inspiration, caring in the world. Yet over shadowed by profit, greed,
I normally try and write a blog sooner then this, but I've had no internet for a long time. Sucks. It's amazing how much we do online. Some say, 'internet is a choice, you don't need it.' No, it is not. So much from government help, to job search and app's are all online! Mail, pay stubs, weather, shopping....all online. And right now I'm in a VERY small town, so you want anything, Amazon here I come!
This is a short time for me to have internet for now. I hope soon to be back to normal, but circumstances have led to a blissful few days of internet.
You know small towns are hard. If you are not raised in them. They are not like T.V. where everyone knows your name. Well kinda. Expect they use it to talk behind your back. Now, not everyone, let me say that now; however, it's a lot. The gossiping, like a bunch of young teens before we're suppose to know better. Why so bad? ....better to do. Give me the Big City shadow, any day. More crime? Not as often, however, while living in this small town I've seen a few robberies, a murder, and a but load of domestic violence. In area's of this increasingly small town. Are there good, sure, and would I be so harsh if they were more honest, no. But, for the bible belt (save me) it's a very hypocritical area. Dance is not, nor will ever be evil. Free thought.....not evil. Learning, not evil. And not fitting into a box...(proudly) not evil. But they kinda teach it that it is.
Now on the whole, this is my over all issue with the human race, it's just so much more in your face when you live in a small town. Some are worse then others, some better. There are good, think out side the box people here too. A few. But they are in turn treated, differently.
I, like most people, don't agree with what everyone says or thinks. If we all agreed I bet it would be easier and quieter, but a lot less colorful, and I expect, boring. I try to respect a different view, mostly, some views I just can't agree with because those views only cause pain, but I do try for the most part. That doesn't mean I agree or will change my opinion or thoughts just because one is presented, but I can and do listen. And not just till I speak again. Why is respect for someone such a hard thing now a days? Or maybe I shouldn't say respect, but courtesy. As humans we have the ability to know better, yet on average, we choose not do have this.
This is how it is right. All the idea's in the world, we use half for evil....do good with some and find a profit for the rest. Then deny and complain. I have no idea if I really believe we can grow out of this or not. So much art, inspiration, caring in the world. Yet over shadowed by profit, greed,
hypocrisy.
Been on my mind. Our lives are hardened by those that don't seem to understand or just don't care about what actions they take or do can affect someone. We do make mistakes, but mostly just trying to fix and re-fix what is going on. But then, that is what most of us are trying to do right? Humans......
Tuesday, February 16, 2016
Life is a ball of Yarn...
Okay....
Sometimes I feel like a ball of yarn being batted around for someones amusement. Other days I feel like I'm be pulled so hard that I'm nothing but a small ball with all my string lying around me in a puddle of a mess. Then you get those rare occasions where you're filled back up, you're yarn is all neat and shinning and you've been put back together like a brand new ball. What a day.
So....why does this happen so often? What is this life? If you believe in God...well the 'Christian God', your life is only a passing moment and all your hard times will be rewarded. And, although you are suppose to live on earth and learn, you are to not be tied to it. Whatever that means. Most religions have something to that kind of ideal...either way your life is the play thing of a God, loving or not depending on the rules set forth.
What if you don't believe in a God or Fate or anything? Easy street right? No. Then everything is your fault and nothing but this life is yours. Good or bad. So what is f**&King with you? Life in general. Not sure that's any better. Maybe it is a comfort to feel like you're in control; however, even if there isn't anyone pulling the strings, bad things can and are still out of your hands a lot of the time.
I've always said, you have to take pleasure in the small things in life. I am grateful that things could have been worse a lot sooner. We will be able to fix things soon enough, but still, some aspects we didn't think would happen...did. Hence, making the few days we do have to deal, much harder, and that's what I'm talking about. The rental place we live in has never really been updated, (even the stuff that should have been, but you know that saying. 'If it ain't broke.....' Well sometimes you need to change it up anyhoo.) so yeah, worst of it is, we are doing the fixing on this rental. It has given us a little leverage due to unexpected issues with work, (thankfully) but still adds to the now annoying situation, we knew may happen, worse. Unneeded stress that is here due to others not wanted to spend a little out of pocket. (Why do we pay rent???) Members of our family out of work, (for a time), do to horrible people sitting in big offices that don't give a crap about anyone. I know, life is changing and good, bad, okay, better, crappy, ....etc. Yet, sometimes it seems like it's all bad with a little less crappy.
How does one deal? Well, you can write. Eat. Drink. Play games. Read. What is that called...? Oh, right, it's escape. We all need one. Some are better then others, but that is what we as humans do. Escape. Even if for only a little while. I do believe in God, so I know who I first get annoyed with when things stay bad, or get a little better then slide back down. (Which is a good point of bring up the other thing we love to do, complain or get crap off our chest. Rant. Yes...all good things.) This does bring me a little comfort since God does say all bad things he does allow. This may be good at times, teach you humility, compassion, and general non-dickness. And a little, 'What the Hell???' when you see someone with little to complain about. (Although they seem to do anyway over the dumbest crap. I know, I know it's important to them, come to me when you can't pay bills no matter how hard you try.) But, even these, 'lessons' or 'character building' can get a bit wearing.
I know things are getting better, even in our little world, yet I'm rather aware how fragile that all is and that is a very big reason why I feel life is a ball of yarn. Don't get me wrong, I think you can fully pull your own strings by actions you take. No one is fully blameless in all things they do, but if your not the one pulling the strings, then whatever life is, whatever you believe in, humanity, God, luck or etc...something is batting you around. Here's the thing though, for each hardship, (more so, I think, for those times you don't really have a lot of control over, wears on you a bit more.) Just like a real ball of yarn, you never can be quite the same again. Some of this is good, you loosen up, get a little more personality, and often you find you learn how to have and be more fun as you gain experience. However, if you're not careful and you keep getting pulled out of shape, you can quickly find yourself to lose and brittle. Frayed and grumpy and soon batted out of sight with faded color and forgotten. This I fear the most. It can be hard, but it is important to take joy in the small things, the good items and people that make you smile. That way, when those hard times come, you don't hold so tight to the middle of the ball, but flex and move and allow a little pull. Some is good, and the other times, lean on the other yarn in the basket. We can all take more, when we get a brake and allow those close to us to take a little of the weight. Good luck.
-Out
Sometimes I feel like a ball of yarn being batted around for someones amusement. Other days I feel like I'm be pulled so hard that I'm nothing but a small ball with all my string lying around me in a puddle of a mess. Then you get those rare occasions where you're filled back up, you're yarn is all neat and shinning and you've been put back together like a brand new ball. What a day.
So....why does this happen so often? What is this life? If you believe in God...well the 'Christian God', your life is only a passing moment and all your hard times will be rewarded. And, although you are suppose to live on earth and learn, you are to not be tied to it. Whatever that means. Most religions have something to that kind of ideal...either way your life is the play thing of a God, loving or not depending on the rules set forth.
What if you don't believe in a God or Fate or anything? Easy street right? No. Then everything is your fault and nothing but this life is yours. Good or bad. So what is f**&King with you? Life in general. Not sure that's any better. Maybe it is a comfort to feel like you're in control; however, even if there isn't anyone pulling the strings, bad things can and are still out of your hands a lot of the time.
I've always said, you have to take pleasure in the small things in life. I am grateful that things could have been worse a lot sooner. We will be able to fix things soon enough, but still, some aspects we didn't think would happen...did. Hence, making the few days we do have to deal, much harder, and that's what I'm talking about. The rental place we live in has never really been updated, (even the stuff that should have been, but you know that saying. 'If it ain't broke.....' Well sometimes you need to change it up anyhoo.) so yeah, worst of it is, we are doing the fixing on this rental. It has given us a little leverage due to unexpected issues with work, (thankfully) but still adds to the now annoying situation, we knew may happen, worse. Unneeded stress that is here due to others not wanted to spend a little out of pocket. (Why do we pay rent???) Members of our family out of work, (for a time), do to horrible people sitting in big offices that don't give a crap about anyone. I know, life is changing and good, bad, okay, better, crappy, ....etc. Yet, sometimes it seems like it's all bad with a little less crappy.
How does one deal? Well, you can write. Eat. Drink. Play games. Read. What is that called...? Oh, right, it's escape. We all need one. Some are better then others, but that is what we as humans do. Escape. Even if for only a little while. I do believe in God, so I know who I first get annoyed with when things stay bad, or get a little better then slide back down. (Which is a good point of bring up the other thing we love to do, complain or get crap off our chest. Rant. Yes...all good things.) This does bring me a little comfort since God does say all bad things he does allow. This may be good at times, teach you humility, compassion, and general non-dickness. And a little, 'What the Hell???' when you see someone with little to complain about. (Although they seem to do anyway over the dumbest crap. I know, I know it's important to them, come to me when you can't pay bills no matter how hard you try.) But, even these, 'lessons' or 'character building' can get a bit wearing.
I know things are getting better, even in our little world, yet I'm rather aware how fragile that all is and that is a very big reason why I feel life is a ball of yarn. Don't get me wrong, I think you can fully pull your own strings by actions you take. No one is fully blameless in all things they do, but if your not the one pulling the strings, then whatever life is, whatever you believe in, humanity, God, luck or etc...something is batting you around. Here's the thing though, for each hardship, (more so, I think, for those times you don't really have a lot of control over, wears on you a bit more.) Just like a real ball of yarn, you never can be quite the same again. Some of this is good, you loosen up, get a little more personality, and often you find you learn how to have and be more fun as you gain experience. However, if you're not careful and you keep getting pulled out of shape, you can quickly find yourself to lose and brittle. Frayed and grumpy and soon batted out of sight with faded color and forgotten. This I fear the most. It can be hard, but it is important to take joy in the small things, the good items and people that make you smile. That way, when those hard times come, you don't hold so tight to the middle of the ball, but flex and move and allow a little pull. Some is good, and the other times, lean on the other yarn in the basket. We can all take more, when we get a brake and allow those close to us to take a little of the weight. Good luck.
-Out
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